What's Blooming in You?

If you're reading this, the chances are high that something is already blooming in you, or is getting ready to. How do I know this? Well, firstly, I don't believe in coincidences, so if you're reading this I think there's a reason why. Something about this topic has already connected with you, perhaps only on a subconscious level. Secondly, at the time of writing this, here in the northern hemisphere we are in the midst of Spring. Things are blooming all over the place and what happens outside is a reflection of our inner world - "as within, so without".

Expansion is natural to you. Just as an acorn grows into a tree, and a caterpillar transforms into a butterfly, there is something inherent in you - in all of us - something 'pre-programmed' into our DNA so that we experience expansion and growth as part of our life cycle. As philosopher Alan Watts explained, "you are the universe experiencing itself" and the universe is in a state of constant expansion.

If personal growth is so natural, you might be wondering why it can often feel like a struggle, and why it is not always clear to you WHAT it is that is ready to bloom in you. As an extension of that, you might be confused about taking the next steps without knowing what they are. This is something that's been coming up a lot lately with my clients and which we have been talking about at the Women's Circle I host each month. While I'm not an expert, 'change management' was part of my first career and I've had plenty of personal experience more recently.

For the last few years I've been through what feels like a seismic shift. On the outside, I might look just a little bit different but the material and physical changes do not really reflect the extensive inner shifts I've experienced, and am still experiencing on a deep level. My whole belief system has changed. My attitude feels totally different. I'm doing work that I never would have thought possible and I've experienced various things that I would simply not have believed if someone had told me about them.

As a result, not only has my attitude towards change altered but I have also come to expect and welcome it. It wasn't always this way. When I first felt 'things' starting to happen, I remember feeling both scared and impatient - I didn't know what was happening, where to begin, or how things would look 'afterwards'. I only sensed that something was about to occur; something was calling me. I wondered if it was a mid-life crisis, or if I was crazy. (Maybe it was and I am, but I'm so much more content now, I don't care!)

It just so happened (Coincidence? I don't think so!) that I came across Rebecca Campbell's book Light is the New Black at exactly that time. I read (on p. 105): "You're never too old to answer your calling and it can never be too late. For the truth of the matter is that your soul is always calling, it was calling yesterday, it is calling today, and it will be calling next week.... Answering the calling of your soul isn't a one-time act; it's a perpetual conversation. It's not about doing one big thing, or finding one single answer to the big question 'What's my purpose?' It's doing hundreds and thousands of little things in that direction, one after the other. It's through following each and every little call - a step here and a leap there - that we find ourselves living the life we are called to live." As a sidenote, I will mention that since my 20s I've been teased about dressing like a 'ninja assassin'. Friends joked that my wedding day was the only time they'd seen me wear anything other than black. On the day that LITNB pretty much jumped off the shelf at me, I was a few sizes larger than I am now, my hair was dyed black and I had a heavy fringe, I wore thick black glasses, and the (obligatory) all-black outfit. Everything about me was dark and heavy. A few days before that fateful day in the bookshop, during a guided meditation, my 'word for the year' was revealed to me as "LIGHT". I had no idea what it meant. So when the book all but SHOUTED at me and I saw the title - which isn't immediately obvious as it's written in gold on a white background - it felt like a personal jibe from the universe. I knew I had to buy it. I laughed about the title with my kids as I walked to the till, knowing nothing about the author or the content of the book. It was the first of many "coincidenc